WHAT MRSM KUALA KLAWANG TOUGHT ME #1 BM

Assalamualaikum.

First things first,

academics 

warning : This entry consist of malay and english.

Okay let's get straight to the point

#1

MRSM KK makes me realised I was and maybe are still a NO NO good in BM subject HAHA

which is pretty shocking when I realised that

A lot of thoughts keeps playing in my mind like

"sejak bila aku lemah BM?"

"Ya Allah aku mmg bodoh camni ke?"

"kenapa markah aku langsung tak hampir pun dgn kwn aku?"

"kenapa takde idea datang ni!!!!!!!!"

I really really do not know since when I had became like this

Dari sekolah rendah lagi,
 *sorry bahasa rojak*

aku tak pernah risau bm aku

Yes, I admit mmg bm aku takdelah hebat sgt pun

selalunya A yang cukup makan je, ataupun B

tapi bila exam penting BM aku selalu A,

mcm UPSR, PMR

tapi SPM ni, seriously I'm not so sure if I can get A,
if I can pass with flying colours.....

And IF I get B, it will surely be hard for me to further my studies anywhere in this modern era.

Aku ingat lagi masa hari akademik,
menangis aku depan cikgu Dijah ahahha

which is shitty embarassing

Then, I started struggling to become good at it,

I had some friends who are in the same shoes as me but then 

they started improving......

improving.....

and improving some more
which began making me feel very left behind...

ARGHH JUST REMEMBERING IT MAKES ME GO BERSERK !!

So I tried...

and tried....
and tried again...

But the result weren't showing any improvement 

and someone said to me....

"Well, if your result aren't good enough, then it just means you didn't tried hard enough"

Then, I flicked.
I don't why but I'm just..
very upset.
Like baby are you down down down down downnn yeaa Jason Derulo in da house!
*used to be my fav song*

Then it rings a bell, that I once laughed at my junior who sucks in this subject

"Akak, mcm mana nk terer bm? Bm saya teruk :("
"Akak, exam ni saya ada satu b, BM :( camne ni kakkk"

And I'm like

See, don't make fun of other people, what goes around, comes around bro.

I also got seperated from my friends everytime there's BM classes but I didn't bothered by it, in fact Im glad. I really hope these classes help to improve my grades.



 To Form 5 batch 96 mrsm kk,
*klau ada yg baca la, which I think don't'

korang ingat tak kat PSP cikgu Hadijah ada cakap

"masa Trial boleh pulak ada orang tanya saya prasarana tu apa? dah hidup 17 tahun tak pernah dgr prasarana tu apa, saya rasa nak #$%^ je"

bukan camtu la ayat cikgu tapi lebih kurang la
ORANGNYA ADALAH AKUU WUU
*angkat tangan*

Hahaha xD

Aku ada sekali call abang aku
Me : Him, bm orang lemah.. camne ni..
Him : Alah jangan risau, BM Him dulu pun x terer, karangan lemah, Him score paper 2 je. Novel2 tu. Tapi SPM, A je. Huda kena ada strategi.

Tulah sedikit sebanyak yg dia ckp.

So, usaha sudah,
doa istiqamah,
sekarang tawakal je lah.

Because, I believe,
Every cloud has it's silver lining :)

Percaya pada Allah.

Ya Allah, tolonglah bagi saya dan 68 lain pelajar MRSM Kuala Klawang dapat straight A dalam SPM. Amin ya rabbal alamin.

Bye assalamualaikum :)